Several times this week, the Gospel featured the various “call” stories from the synoptic gospels…but the one from Mark always strikes me with its “call” being done in the context of urgency or immediacy. Jesus’ coming is a NOW EVENT and calls for a NOW RESPONSE. Sometimes I think in this individualistic society that we live in, we are even encouraged to take our time and “think things over” before we make any decisions……yet if you read the “call” stories from the Gospels, Jesus tells the first of his Apostles to “come after Me” or “come, follow Me” and they immediately leave their nets, their own worldly entanglements we might say, and follow Jesus….that we could do the same.
So often, I know my own willfulness, pride, and even fear gets in the way of dropping my nets of worldly entanglements and just setting off freely to follow Jesus. Yet the more I think about it and view the newly fallen snow outside my window, I begin to feel that it must be a truly freeing experience to be able to say “YES” to Jesus’ call. It’s so pure and innocent like the white fields that I am looking at, and yet, I hesitate. I wonder why?
I begin to think of all those things that I will have to leave behind….and yet, in the end, when Jesus calls me home one day, won’t I be doing just that….leaving all behind to follow him into the great mystery of Love that awaits all of us…..I pray that each day I may become more and more free of those nets that keep me giving a free and complete “yes” to Jesus….. I promised that once on the day of profession…..it’s good to remind myself each day of what that promise means….to be like the Master because he became like me…..Lord, help me keep taking that step that follows yours.